wo ma?

jin tian..you bu dong zai xiang shen me..hao na men..
shi wo yi zhi zai luan xiang..wo xiang..shi wo ba..
yi wei tan bai suo yi jue de qi guai le..
wo you lai le...hen tan xin..
ke shi..zhe ci hao xiang..hen qiang..
ken ding shi wo feng le..zhe yang dui ren he ren
dou hen bu gong ping..dui bu qi..
bu zhi dao yao xie shen me le..

sen dan jie kuai le..

luv,ming

cry on my shoulder..

if the hero never comes to you
If you need someone You’re feeling blue.
If you wait for love and you’re alone
If you call your friends nobody’s home

You can run away but you can’t hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I’ll show you there’s a destiny
The best things in life they are free

But if you wanna cry, Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone Who cares for you
If you’re feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There’s a place in heaven where we’ll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I’ll make your day

When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you I’ll never hide

But if you wanna cry Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone Who cares for you
If you’re feeling sad Your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry, Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone Who cares for you
If you’re feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
what love can do

luv,ming

since When..

since when u will feel like nothing else to do besides watching tv..
since when u will feel that working sucks..
since when u will feel that u have to wash your car every week..
since when u will feel that u have to do laundry too..
since when u will feel that u couldn't find any other way to release stress..
since when u will feel that u don't even have a minute to online..

since when u will realize that u haven't talk to a friend lately..
since when u will realize that u have to face irritating people every single day..
since when u will realize that u look like 42 even though u are only 24..
since when u will realize that "tick-tock-tick-tock" just gone..
since when u will realize that u lost your way without dancing..

since when u will find the way to be yourself..
since when u will deal with your bad temper..
since when u will not feeling bad when u are driving home from work..
since when u will have to be obeyed even u dislike it..
since when u will find the way to "balance" yourself..
since when u will finish and clear the mess on your working desk..
since when u will learn the appropriate attire..

since when u will...
since when u...
since when...
since...

since.....................17.09.1985

陈势安- 天后

终于找到借口 趁着醉意上心头
表达我所有感受
寂寞渐浓 沉默留在舞池角落
你说的太少或太多 都会让人更惶恐

谁任由谁放纵 谁会先让出自由
最后一定总是我
双脚悬空 在你冷酷热情间游走
被侵占所有还要笑着接受

我嫉妒你的爱气势如虹
像个人气高居不下的天后
你要的不是我 而是一种虚荣
有人疼才显得多么出众

我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容
成全了你万众宠爱的天后
若爱只剩诱惑 只剩彼此忍受
别再互相折磨 因为我们都有错

推开苍白的手 推开苍白的厮守
管你有多么失措
别再叫我 心软是最致命的脆弱
我明明都懂却仍拼死效忠

如...果有一天爱不再迷惑
足够去看清所有是非对错
直到那个时候 你在我的心中
将不再被歌颂 把你当作天后
不会再是我

hmm...

almost 1 month for all practises stopped..

feels like few months passed..

besides Home Visitation, small meetings and tuition..

i was trying to fill up my time..

hmm...

hmm...

hmm...

feels like don't know what to do...

smile like the ''Super Mario Doraemon'' and move on...

luv,ming

September baby..

yesterday..gave a surprise birthday celebration for Evon..
This is my first meeting with them after the memo that we
will not have practices until further notice..

we went to watch ''The Final Destination"..abit the disgusting..
but still..is a good movie.. then ate dinner at Chilis.. waiter brought
out the ''Bee Cake'' that i bought..that's surprised her when we
sang the birthday song (erm..abit out of beat..hahaha).. then had
a laughing dinner with alot of cold jokes..wahahaha...

Evon's actual birthday is 12 September..

Happy Birthday girl...

luv,ming

the days without dancing..

i received sms from Pei Yien that all meetings (more than 10ppl) including
cultural practises will be ceased temporary due to the spread of H1N1..


the only feeling i have is.....

sad..

but..like what my sis said..this is the real time to see our strength..


but still...i feel sad..

anyway,don't even think of giving up becuz we are Fighters!!!!!!
Fight till the last breath..H1N1,we will fight till u disappear!!!!

Sure, we will!!!!

All SGM Comrades, Gambateh!!!!

luv,ming

Regret!!!!!

Omg!! frankly speaking, i just started to ''play'' facebook.. unbelievable?? believe it..
The point is i just read a msg from a good friend of my from high school.. He wanted to
invite me to his wedding on 4th July..BUt...Lee Ming Li just got the msg today!!!!!
I'm so so so regreted for it!!! I'm really happy that he still remember me and somemore
invite me to his wedding..but i missed it!!!

Sigh....

Sigh...



luv,ming

30 June 2009

last day of June.. ppl..last day already..
Yesterday was Mom's birthday..bought her
an arm chair [ from IKEA] that she wanted
to buy long time ago..

dont' know what to write liao..
bye ler...


luv,ming

R.I.P Michael Jackson 1958~2009

Michael Jackson, the sensationally gifted child star who rose to become the “King of Pop” and the biggest celebrity in the world only to fall from his throne in a freakish series of scandals, died Thursday. He was 50.

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R.I.P
Michael Jackson

不理他了。。

昨天，我痛骂他。。
今天。。他。。跟我道歉。。
他。。说他自己犯贱。。
我只是很冷的回了：'' 随便你要做什么。。”
我。。曾经跟一个人说过同样的话。。
因为她和他都同样做了让我痛心的事。。
嗯，是我过分在乎了。。
好朋友那么难当吗？
我真的第一次在电话骂一个人。。
嗯。。真的。。随便你要怎么做。。
我不理了。。能说的我都说了。。
再说就没意思了。。真的累了。。
你好自为知了。。加油！

start of something new..

love, he fell into it..
heart, he is heart broken..
lost, he lost himself..
thought, he assumed what ppl will think..
idiot, he is the most love idiot that i ever met..

ears, always there for him..
words,are there to scold him..
sounds, always there to comfort him..

sometimes really feel like whacking him..knock him to the wall..
GRrrrrr... no choice, can't reach him that far..like i said:" bro, she will
understand someday..trust me,trust her and trust your Gohonzon!"

start something new today..becuz something has changed..
don't leave any regrets in your life..becuz life only once..
never do anything that u will regret..becuz is not worth it..
SO, bro, wake up and start all over again..i know is hard, becuz
nothing is easy in this world.. no free lunch!!! Fight for it!!!
Gambateh!!


luv,ming

my 6.15

14.06.2008..hurt my 大腿 3days before performance..
14.06.2009..hurt my both knees 3days before performance..
15.06.2009..12.00am..HAppy birthday Yue Chuan..
15.06.2009..940am..don't feel well during work..
15.06.2009..330pm..went to see doc..then went home..
15.06.2009..400pm..ate medicine..slept..
15.06.2009..815pm..incharged of entertainment for meeting..
15.06.2009..945pm..home..
15.06.2009..1015pm..crapping here..

i was hurt during 6.15 performance.. both same happened
3days before the performance.. both also someone there for me..
2008, Wei chanted together with me..
2009, Wei..there practise together with me..
thank u..thank u for everything..i know i've been saying this since the
day we started practise..and i'm totally agreed with Chai Wen that..i found the
passion on you that i've lost it..i've been looking at you dancing for 2dances non-stop..
u never show tired face..u just wanna do teh best o fthe best u can..

HAD~~a team is better than solo.. we all are always a team..support each
other.. help each other..we are the team that ppl can count on us..
We will be good..we will be strong..we will climb all the mountains and cross
all the valleys..

Guys and Lee Ming Li, Gambateh!!

luv,ming

The CLimb-Miley Cyrus

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

luv,HAD Mingli

六月来了..加油!!!

或许我没告诉他..他做得越哆,只会让她更反感..我不会安慰他..我只能听他说..
或许他是倔强地爱吧..只会让她觉得反感和他自己更难过..
或许他真的不明白..其实他心里明白而且有了答案..只是不肯承认而已....
我希望他能领悟..小朋友,加油!!

"我..还有更重要的事.." 心里明白..我..有很多事要做..不要问我是什么..
我没办法一一细说..我...要加油..是时候了!!!!!!小朋友,不要哭了,
振作!!! 有一天,他会明白的..加油!!

六月要来了..不是''六月飞霜"..是加油,加油.再加油!!!!我不知道该说些什么..
只能希望,我们一起加油!!!

me...still me...

have a very very good friend..
until we can feel how each other's emotional..whether happy
or sad.. just like me and my mom[sort of].. he treated me like
his mom[weird??]..i'm glad that i know him.. made me realized
i dont' really have any real friends that can talk ''heart matter''..
maybe is i'm having too many things..hard to have time with friends
.. guess..i need to re-evaluate myself.. Hmm..alot of things happened
these few weeks..unbelievable,unacceptable.. again i wanna say..
Time to grow up..



something bothering me..i dunno what.. just don't feel good..
something is blocking my mind..i dunno what.. don't feel right..
something is making me feel bored..i dunno what..
something is making me acting weird...i dunno what..
something seems like not right..i dunno what..


learning to smile..
trying to smile..
pretending to smile..
learning to cry...
trying to cry..
crying...

i just feel really bored..bored and bored.. something really

bothering me..and i really dynno what..dunno what to

write anymore...

still searching..................

luv,ming

the path of life..tiring..

yesterday, Hong gave a very serious speech to us.. Is serious but is true!!
Guess like he said, he is upset to see our attitude and behaviour..
every single words he said..hit my heart and knock my head..

i have alot confusion of feelings..and dilemma.. guess alot of things in my
mind recently.. trying to be strong.. am i now?.. hard to answer that..
but i'll be.. sometimes, don't really what i'm doing is right or wrong..

i was....
lost myself.. trying to find..
but couldn't find..
tired of fighting..
but have to fight..
tired of not being trusted..
but have to let go..

and now..
lost myself.. trying to find..
will continue to search for it..
tired of fighting..
will fight till the end..
tired of not being trusted..
will be the best of the best..

HAD Modern Dance Exchange Meet..

21 March and 22 March.. our HAD Modern Dance Exchange Meet..
Perak, Pahang, Penang, Johor, Muar,N.Sembilan [i hope i didn't
miss anyone].. First of all, thank u for everyone every single one
that attended.. thank u for all PICs.. thank u..

i finally saw him from near.. just only every year CNy only will
get to see his performance.. Jia You ooh..!!! then i met this guy..
found him very cute and funny somemore his middle name
same as me.. so he called me 'jie''.. guesss i got one more bro =)
another good thing is the dance workshop.. Damn syok!! cuz
long time never lead aerobic and dance by Hong.. and the song
is damn good!!! Wah, syoknya!! hehehe.. hehehe.. wahahaha..
ahhaha..

i learned something..ppl from other states always thought KL
dance members are the best.. so, all HAD members must
work hard for that.. whether we are the best or not, pls be humble
for that. becuz is very obvious to see from one's face whether u are
humble or not, confident or not.. and i also realized something..
besides, our normal practise.. i long time never meet so many
ppl and get to know them [not all ler.. actually..=) ] or maybe..
guess i have not much friends..pathetic,right?

anyway, Congrats to all HAd members and all modern dance
members of all states.. Jia You!!!

luv,ming

i have a dream..

have u ever dreamt about something bad? something good? something sweet?
i had a dream..days later..months later..years later..same scene happen in front
of me.. and i'm sure that i've dreamed that before.. weird,right?

everyone have a dream.. to be this or that.. to have this or that.. to get rid of
this or that.. To me, my dream: to be a better person and help ppl..
Every steps we take is hard, this is y they said:"there's no free lunch in this world"
Guess that means we need to work hard if we wanna achieve something..
This is a simple theory of life but everyone of us couldn't do it..Why?

My car back mirror was broken due to the hot and cold weather.. My colleague
was surprised that i was cool/steady when i saw all the small pieces on the car park
.. Guess i'm getting to understand.. There's nothing u can do if something already
happened.. or recently alot of incidents happen.. i'm forced to react that?? I don't
know about it.. This is what i really wanna work hard.. Work hard.. Feel bad.. but
i'll work hard.. i'll do it.. i'll stand still.. i won't fall...

2010... walking towards.. looking forward... 2010...
We are coming.. We are.. Be well prepared..

luv,ming

i'm glad..keep fighting...

have u ever think that.. what if u didn't meet this person?
what if u never been there? what if u never walk in to that place?
Well, if there are so many ''what if'' in your life then i wanna ask:
u got nothing else to do by just sitting there and thinking what if
this and what if that?

I'm glad i'm still alive..i'm glad i'm my mom's daughter...i'm glad
that i'm a Soka Gakkai member..i'm glad that i'm keep fighting here
.. i'm glad that i joined HAD.... and i'll continue to think that.. becuz
i'm glad to be who i am...

No matter how many bruises u have after practises..no matter how
late u work till..no matter how mad u are..no matter how tired u are
.. no matter how happy u are..no matter how lonely u are..no matter
how many problems u are having now.. no matter how... U are U..
this is the fact that never changed..this is the reason for u to be here
.. that's the way it is.. that's LIFE.. may u never forget that..

All i wanna say..i'm fighting..and i'll keep fighting..

nitez..

luv,ming

one day..

someday somehow...u might realize..u are not yourself..maybe just for awhile..
heard 2 nice songs few days ago.. watched a nice and funny drama few days ago..
not happy with something few days ago.. this week is a weird week to me.. don't ask
me y.. i couldn't answer that.. maybe..i couldn't find someone to talk..so i'm here now...

sometimes..i'll just cry in the car when i'm going home from work.. i'll cry on some sad
songs.. i'll listen to the same song keep repeating all along my journey home.. don't know
y i cry..guess i'm not working hard enough for myself.. not enough for my work.. not
enough for my parents..not enough for someone.. voices inside my head.. one struggling
to be better..another one is trying to be lazy.. maybe, that's life.. maybe that's y we are
living for.. maybe that's y we are human being.. maybe..maybe... we are meant to
remind ourselves to be hardworking in everything.. fight for what is worth to fight for
.. create memorable moments everyday..every second..every minute..just like what
we did for our dance concert.. we all fight till the last..and is not the end of the show,
is just the beginning of it..

one day,u'll find how beautiful is the world..how glad u should be to have everything
u are having now.. and i'm glad to have everything and everyone with me here..
and i'm telling that i'm still fighting for it.. i'm not a loser and i'm winning every moment..
i am...

may i never forget.. glad to be myself...


luv,ming