me...still me...

have a very very good friend..
until we can feel how each other's emotional..whether happy
or sad.. just like me and my mom[sort of].. he treated me like
his mom[weird??]..i'm glad that i know him.. made me realized
i dont' really have any real friends that can talk ''heart matter''..
maybe is i'm having too many things..hard to have time with friends
.. guess..i need to re-evaluate myself.. Hmm..alot of things happened
these few weeks..unbelievable,unacceptable.. again i wanna say..
Time to grow up..



something bothering me..i dunno what.. just don't feel good..
something is blocking my mind..i dunno what.. don't feel right..
something is making me feel bored..i dunno what..
something is making me acting weird...i dunno what..
something seems like not right..i dunno what..


learning to smile..
trying to smile..
pretending to smile..
learning to cry...
trying to cry..
crying...

i just feel really bored..bored and bored.. something really

bothering me..and i really dynno what..dunno what to

write anymore...

still searching..................

luv,ming

the path of life..tiring..

yesterday, Hong gave a very serious speech to us.. Is serious but is true!!
Guess like he said, he is upset to see our attitude and behaviour..
every single words he said..hit my heart and knock my head..

i have alot confusion of feelings..and dilemma.. guess alot of things in my
mind recently.. trying to be strong.. am i now?.. hard to answer that..
but i'll be.. sometimes, don't really what i'm doing is right or wrong..

i was....
lost myself.. trying to find..
but couldn't find..
tired of fighting..
but have to fight..
tired of not being trusted..
but have to let go..

and now..
lost myself.. trying to find..
will continue to search for it..
tired of fighting..
will fight till the end..
tired of not being trusted..
will be the best of the best..