the path of life..tiring..

yesterday, Hong gave a very serious speech to us.. Is serious but is true!!
Guess like he said, he is upset to see our attitude and behaviour..
every single words he said..hit my heart and knock my head..

i have alot confusion of feelings..and dilemma.. guess alot of things in my
mind recently.. trying to be strong.. am i now?.. hard to answer that..
but i'll be.. sometimes, don't really what i'm doing is right or wrong..

i was....
lost myself.. trying to find..
but couldn't find..
tired of fighting..
but have to fight..
tired of not being trusted..
but have to let go..

and now..
lost myself.. trying to find..
will continue to search for it..
tired of fighting..
will fight till the end..
tired of not being trusted..
will be the best of the best..